And breathe new life into these bones

You know that feeling that you are about to overflow, that feeling of being overwhelmed and filled to the brim with tears, that at any point could seep out and expose your weakness? Well that's where I'm at and it's where I've been at for most of the day. Sometimes it hits you like a ton of bricks. Knowing that the child in my arms is starving and her clothes are torn up and dirty, knowing that her daddy never comes home and that she shows signs of abuse that would be redflagged in any kindergarden back home, but then knowing that it may not get better, knowing that she might live like this her whole life, knowing it might get worse... Well, that kills me, it angers me, its sadens me.

We are working to get a feeding program in place and running and it's a project that takes time and patience, but once it's in place, the kids at el gorrion school will receive a substancial, formal snack everyday. Nutrtion classes are in the works and cooking classes to teach parents About the effects of eating only tortilla an beans, to help them learn to mak other foods that will provide more nutrtion. Vitamins are now in all the classrooms and there will hopefully be some improvement. El gorrion, thanks to pastor Mario will now have running water for the first time since they were relocated there after hurricaine Mitch 11 years ago and that is truly going to make a huge difference. But the homes are still broken, poverty is present here in a very real way. There's enough food and money on this planet to feed everyone, solving world hunger is not imposssible...we need to be outraged and constructive because its not okay.

We visited a home today. All the children were unwell, but the smallest one was the worst. He lives in a home with 17 other people and he is very sick. He has respitory problems and anemia that is so severe, if left untreated will turn into leukemia. His family cannot afford medicine or food to make it better an I know that once the problem
escalates for that child, there will be even less that can be done. Now some si staff are working to provide some care for him but it shakes me to know that a problem so easily fixable could lead to a death here because of poverty and hunger...that this 5 year old boy may have a shorter life because there wasn't enough money for vitamins. This is just one of billions of cases like this world wide and that fact alone makes me desire change, makes me unablen to ignore what I now know.